This year, things have to be a little different. The normal holiday traditions that I love taking part in, some will have to happen without me. I didn't get to be at my parents' house to put up and decorate the main Christmas tree. That's right, there's more than one tree. We won't be at my family's church for Christmas Eve. I won't wake up in my parents' house for Christmas morning. It's going to be weird.
Do I love Lyndon? Absolutely. Am I thrilled to celebrate our first Christmas together? Of course. Am I ready to give up family traditions in lieu of new ones that Lyndon and I should start together? No. I don't think I ever will. So while life goes on and new traditions are started, my heart will always have a sad spot where family Christmas traditions once were.
I may or may have just teared up.