Friday, March 4, 2011

Lesson #31: Getting mad happens, staying mad isn't worth it

Sometimes people get under your skin.  It happens when you feel like you can't take them anymore, and you're seconds away from blowing up.  Unfortunately, this isn't something that goes away with marriage.  No matter how hard you try, there are going to be times when you're seconds away from blowing up at the one you love the most.

There have been plenty of times when I've gotten upset with Lyndon.  I consider myself almost an expert when it comes to keeping my cool around others, but my wonderful husband brings that out of me.  I don't know, it must be a talent he wishes he didn't have.

We were budgeting for the marvelous month of March (something I highly recommend to everyone), and there were money transfer things I wasn't understanding.  Lyndon was trying to explain what he wanted to do, and nothing was clicking in my brain.  It doesn't help that when he tries to stay calm while explaining, he puts his hand on my shoulder or on my knee, attempting to be comforting or something.  Thing is, that's the last thing I want him to do; I already feel like he's talking down to me (even though he's not).  I ended up understanding what he meant, but I was still mad at him.

I continued to be angry with him for a while, but then I realized how silly it was.  I was holding on to something that I just needed to let go of.  It would have been easy to hold on to that anger, but what a ridiculous thing to hold on to.  Forgetting it was exactly what I needed to do, and we were laughing at each other by the end of our "budget meeting."