Distance might make the heart grow fonder, but it's keeping me from getting some shut-eye.
The husband and I are used to being apart. A great deal of our dating relationship and engagement was spent long distance, and there have been multiple weeks of our marriage when we're off doing different things. Not being together is old hat for us, but things have not been so smooth as of late.
Wednesday the 21st through Sunday the 25th was my gospel choir's tour. We were out traveling the Midwest, singing about Jesus while Lyndon stayed at home. It was a rough week for both of us and for different reasons. I was struggling with emotional family stuff, and Lyndon was having a horrible time trying to sleep without me. Luckily, I stayed in host homes and shared a bed with fellow choir gals every night. Poor Lyndon had to sleep all alone. Restless night after restless night made for one exhausted husband when I got back on Sunday.
I then ignored my homework in order to spend time with him. I find reasons to push homework aside many times (like right now, for instance), but this reason was legitimate. I had just gotten back, and he was leaving the next day for military things.
He's now off doing some military thing or other, and I'm the one stuck at home. Last night, I think I got four hours of sleep. That could be an exaggeration, but I really don't think it is. The problem is that I can find plenty of things to keep myself busy during the day, but when I'm trying to go to bed all I can think about is the lack of husband sleeping next to me. His physical presence is something that I've so gotten used to that not having him next to me is keeping me awake past all hours of reason.
Realizing this has brought me to two more realizations:
1. I'm grateful every single day that I have a husband who I get to sleep next to at night (usually). Those who have lost spouses or have spouses overseas have incredible courage and strength.
2. I might need to invest in melatonin or something.
Apartment update!
We found a place! It meets all of our specifications and should be affordable, too. We're currently waiting to be approved, so we'll have to wait and see.
I've started collecting boxes, and Lyndon is looking for dogs. Let's hope this works out.
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